Having a Rolo, and no, you can’t have my last one. Blah, I feel like crud today, but at least the day is passing quicker than yesterday did. I need to make my thoughts a little more coherent, my WomenGamers article isn’t making sense to me, and if it doesn’t make sense to me then no one is going get it. I think I have an inkling of what I’m trying to say, but it’s just not solidifying (as much as words are solid) on the screen for me. Bleurgh.
Why are we so competetive? The whole world, I mean. Everything has to be bigger, better, newer, most efficient, or whatever. Everyone has to get the highest score, except that there’s always someone who can get a higher score than you. I learned that back in public school. I was the best speller in my grade three class, but there were other better spellers than me in other classes, and in other schools. It never changes. The best is temporary, it’s only the best until something better comes along, or something different comes along and the old is forgotten.
I don’t want to be old. I don’t want to be forgotten. I don’t want to be the best, though. I just want to be good enough to be remembered, or good enough to have some sort of impact somewhere.
I just want to be someone.