Watching television (okay, I’m pretty damn bored). I hate being bored. It’s really not good for me, it just makes me moody & annoyed with stuff, which seems to be the state I’ve been in all day anyhow.
I got annoyed with Jay tonight about the moving thing. I want to move, and he doesn’t care if we don’t move. He likes it here… he likes the area (as do I) and he likes the apartment (which I don’t, obviously.) It seems more to me like he’s just happy coasting here, because it’s easy. And that pisses me off to no end. When the relationship started, we were on equal ground, both had jobs, both were fully able to take care of ourselves, both hating the jobs we had but getting by. He moved in a while ago, and hasn’t worked since. He tells me that he’s going to go to school, but he’s been saying that for months now, and I’m so frustrated. It only really comes up as an issue when I’m doing housework, since he doesn’t help much, or when I want to move, but we can’t because I’m the only one with a job… but we could though, my job is a lot better than my old one, and I could afford a new place on my own… I just want a relationship that’s on equal ground again, like it used to be, like it’s supposed to be. I hate waiting, I’m tired of waiting, I’m really bad at waiting. I want him to take part in our relationship. I’m just so tired.