Grew up too fast, can’t go back now

Hmm. It’s chilly now. This apartment can’t seem to pick a temperature. It was too hot all day, and now it’s getting cool.

Could I go back to being a child? I don’t know, I grew up too fast I think. I can’t seem to delve into a lot of my childhood memories without somehow triggering some sort of unhappy memory tied to it.

I remember the day that I realized that I actually did have fun times with my father. I was tormented by the thought… it was so much easier to just think of it as all bad… but it wasn’t. And that’s so hard to deal with sometimes… and all the happy memories are completely tainted by the completely messed ones. Everything is connected. I wish I could start over from scratch, but it doesn’t work that way.

3 Comments

  • lizvang

    July 23, 2000 at 4:53 am

    lovin’ the dixie chicks…goodbye earl is classic…although i really like you were mine the best i think…

    -a closet dixie chicks fan aka Liz 🙂

    • Jenny Lee Silver

      July 23, 2000 at 7:02 am

      Hehehe

      I saw them live at lillith fair last year, and it was the first time I heard Goodbye Earl… they did an amazing job, and they were the liveliest of all the performers I saw that day. I agree totally about You Were Mine, that song has so much emotion wrapped up in it, and it’s so nice to sing…

  • magicwoman

    July 23, 2000 at 7:54 am

    Dixie Chicks

    I saw the Dixie Chicks back in 1987 (or 88) at the Texas State Fair for free! They were this cute little group with three girls dressed up like cowgirls. I thought it was a hoot – but thought they were good. They have really transformed from then to their current look.

    Also saw the Fabulous Thunderbirds (one of my favorite Tex-Mex bands) at the Texas State Fair for free. Saw them right before Stevie Ray Vaughn was killed in the plane crash.