Yes, that’s what I’ll call it… I’m not doing reception, I’m just being receptive. I’m better at it now, not as nervous or anything. I can’t keep track of who wants to be notified of calls and who is happy with just having their calls transferred. I’m trying to keep track of it though. After this, I’m going to go get myself an Earl Grey tea (haven’t tried Lady Grey Tea yet) and a bagel.
I came to the conclusion yesterday that I am showing my usual signs of depression kicking in again. At least I can recognize it now, and do something about it. I told Jay about it, he asked me what would help, so I told him that there were two big things that would make a huge difference: getting a new apartment and having that whole ordeal settled, and him working at a job that has a steady income so that I don’t feel so much pressure on myself all the time. I don’t mind being responsible, I just don’t want to be the only one who is. Anyhow, we talked, (not that we haven’t had the conversation before, but this time it was really getting to me and it was noticeable.)
I’ve been really blah for the past week or so. (Longer, actually, I’ve only been acknowledging it for a week or so.) It’s really tough to feel good about myself when I’m like this… it’s tough to feel good about anything. I certainly haven’t felt good about work in a while (doesn’t help that work is drab, dismal, boring, and tedious,) and I haven’t felt like I have a balanced relationship in a while… I used to, I know that. Balance is a big deal for me, I have to feel balanced or else nothing feels right at all. Maybe it’s my Libra personality… 😉