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I’m fine today. Was a bit touchy last night, I could see conflict happening and I couldn’t understand why or what triggered it or anything, but somehow it was my fault, so I just kinda lost it and shut my whole computer down. (it wasn’t anything on IRC.) Anyhow, it wasn’t my fault, it wasn’t specifically aimed at me, I just took it that way and lost myself in it for a bit. Jay made me feel better though, he followed me around and bugged me til I told him why I was upset, then rationalized it all through and made me realize that I didn’t need to be upset. I just don’t understand why people have to get defensive or attack other people and make sarcastic or caustic comments about stuff… it’s my nature to internalize that and direct it at me. I’m far better at defending someone else than I am myself…

To quote a friend, Bad day, fuck it.

I’ll just stay out of that discussion before I really do become a target, cuz then I’ll completely lose it, and that would not be good.