Damn that fucking downswing mood. I don’t know why it shows up sometimes, and it makes me want to just give up. It hit me when I was playing guitar tonight… I was actually looking over one of my own (very few) songs and playing it, and it just hit me that I hated the song, and I hated the words, and I wanted to break my guitar and go somewhere far away from myself. But I didn’t break my guitar, and I’m still here, sitting here with a strange lump in my throat feeling like I’m going to cry for no reason at all. Maybe I should just give up and go to bed.