It’s cold in here today… not quite cold enough to turn the heat on yet. I can’t believe it’s nearly mid-november and we haven’t turned the heat on once… how odd. I guess our hydro bill will be pretty low. That’s not such a bad thing.
Maybe I should wait a week or two to carry out my nefarious plan… (okay… so it’s not much of a plan, and it certainly isn’t nefarious, but still…) Anyhow… maybe I should just wait until Jay’s settled in and happy with his new job before I do anything. I’m trying to be all responsible and grown-up here. No, I don’t want to stay, but I have a lot of trouble just leaving… what if Jay’s job thing doesn’t work out, what if he hates it, what if they fired him… then we’d both be without work. Too many what-if’s, I know. I hate them, but they haunt me.
Maybe I’m just afraid. Nothing is ever certain, is it?