Everyone keeps asking me what I want to be doing. Running away isn’t a valid answer. Running away means giving up. That’s what I’m told, anyway. And giving up is bad. We’re not supposed to give up, we’re supposed to be successful and all that crud. And if I don’t know what I want to do, the best thing for me to do is keep doing something that is at lease something rather than just do absolutely nothing… even if that something is making me feel as though I can’t do anything…

This is messed.

1 Comment

  • ex_oki86

    November 22, 2000 at 12:20 am

    You know what cheers me up?

    Listening to Peter Gabriel & Kate Bush singing “Don’t give up” in times like those when I do feel like giving up.

    I dunno why. Of course one still has to be in the mood to listen to it to make it work.

    It’s amazing how much music can influence the way you think and feel. Or maybe the Jedi mind trick just works well on me, because I’m such a simpleton? Or a lesbian trapped in a male body?

    Ok ok… I’ll stop grasping for straws… hehehe.