In response to this thread in the forums at I have a Secret, I said this in regards to dreams:

I don’t know. I’ve never really known. I used to make things up in school when they asked me what I wanted to do, what I wanted to be, because they didn’t like the answer “I don’t know.” And all people would tell me is “You can be whatever you want,” which never gave me any direction at all. They just assumed I’d figure it all out and then left me alone. I think I was left alone too long, now I don’t know how to focus on anything, and I still don’t know what I want.

I keep trying things that I think I want, but they’re always completely wrong. I still don’t know what I want, so I don’t even have any dreams to try for if I wanted to. I’m just coasting.

And rather unhappily so.

1 Comment

  • ex_oki86

    December 1, 2000 at 11:39 pm

    All I know is that I want to be everything, yet have to do nothing.

    I guess, it’s kinda a zen thing.