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So… what’s the safety zone, and what’s just running away?

If I go back to work and hate it, is that staying safe? If I quit my job, is that giving up, failing, and running away because I can’t do it?

If I do quit and then just sit around the house doing nothing because I don’t know what I actually wanted to accomplish by quitting, is that just another kind of running away and giving up?

I think it’s great that Cyn was able to leave her job and start work from home… but she had a plan, at least a small idea of what she wanted to do. I don’t even have that. And quitting a job, much like quitting school, is seen as failing in my mind as much as in anyone else’s… never leave one place unless you have someplace else to go. Sadly enough, I used to do that with relationships too… I couldn’t leave one relationship unless I knew I had another one lined up when I came out on the other side. I learned otherwise, eventually. That was when I used to define myself by my relationship, and that’s always a bad idea.

My hands are like ice. I feel numb.

1 Comment

  • peekaboo

    December 3, 2000 at 12:32 am

    i think that it’s smart to have some kind of plan for yourself…no matter what it is so that you don’t end up isolating yourself. but i also know that you are really severely unhappy at your job and i personally think that you need a change.