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Greetings Jenny —
Here is your horoscope for Saturday, February 3:
People-watching will only get you involved. There’s a new story out there waiting for you to join it. The perfect client finds their way to you by a series of uncanny referrals.

Clients?? Doesn’t that mean I have to have a service to offer them or something??

We’ve been invited out bowling tonight. It’s at the other end of the city, so I’m having trouble convincing Jay that it would be worth it. I don’t really feel like staying home tonight, though… But the open stage is tomorrow, so if I actually intend to go and play, then I should practice or something.

The thing is, I shake like hell when I’m not nervous, and get up and sing at karaoke where it doesn’t matter whether or not you can sing. I shake and I can’t control it and I hate it. If that’s how I react when I’m not really nervous and it doesn’t matter, then it’ll only be worse when I really am nervous. And it is, I’ve done it before. I hate it, it makes me hate getting up and performing, because I can’t control it. Supposedly it doesn’t come out in my voice, but really, I know better. I know my voice better than anyone else out there, and I have to work to keep control over it when I shake that much. When it’s work, it’s not really enjoyable anymore. fneu.

1 Comment

  • Anonymous

    February 3, 2001 at 2:30 pm

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    sh’ya, I know what you mean…. seems kinda silly to me that when my brain is perfectly composed and I’m comfortable with the audience, that my voice decides to quiver. especially during a performance I could do in my sleep! it’s embarrassing to be in your element, yet still feel like a chyld with no control.

    I keep telling myself that I’m not anxious or anything…. but the butterflies in my stomach let me know that I really am nervous. and that’s okay! it lets you know that you’re doing something important, something you want to do well. it’s just a natural reaction to stress.

    if you are aware in your heart that you’re talented and gifted, that’s all that matters 🙂

    -jinx