It seems my guitar playing is following the path that my piano playing went when I was much younger. I took piano lessons for a while in grade nine or so. I hated practicing. I hated scales and learning the songs that the book wanted me to learn, the songs that my teacher would assign me every week. I would ignore the book, ignore the assignments, and teach myself a song from some other book that was supposedly beyond my abilities to play. I would memorize that song, and be able to play it… but nothing else. I can still play on piano some of the songs I memorized back in grade nine… stuff like “everything I do, I do it for you,” and a new kids ballad… that sort of thing. The stuff that I will never want to play on keyboards again. At any rate, this meant that while I learned to play those songs, I never learned the basic skills needed to play piano. I can read music, but I can’t play it well. It would take me months to learn a song on piano now. I don’t even HAVE a piano now (well, I do sort of, but that’s another story.)
Now I’m doing something similar with guitar. I don’t take lessons, I don’t have a teacher, but when I try to teach myself things that are good to know, like scales and modes, and practice fingerings and chords, I tend to lose my concentration. I just want to play songs, and I want to play them right, and I want to play them well, the first time. Otherwise, if it’s not perfect, it’s not worth it. Which means I hardly practice at all, and I don’t even want to because it only makes me want to cry. I get so frustrated, so easily. I give up before I ever start.