I feel like I’m falling out of love. I don’t know if it quite works that way, but something’s not working. It’s all or nothing, when it’s at this point. If I ignore it, it’ll just go away for a while, but it will be back. I am haunted by the past in everything that I do today. Nothing is balanced. I don’t want to prove the doubters right, though… I don’t need anyone gloating at me again. I want to be right from the beginning for a change. I want to be wrong about this. I hate my instincts.