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I went to bed at 9:00 last night, or so. I was absolutely exhausted. I fell asleep without a problem, but woke up again around 10:30. After that, I couldn’t fall back into real sleep… I felt like I had a fever, I was cold and sweating, and I had these awake dreams… people were talking to me, telling me things that didn’t make much sense, and stories about their lives… the only one I remember specifics of is a man I didn’t know telling me that the secret of understanding was to look at traffic upside-down, and that it made more sense that way. I felt like my body was made out of pieces of stone, sharp pieces, like I was just a pile of soapstone or shale lying in bed. It was hours before my body felt like a body again. When Jay came to bed around 1am, I was still awake, and I don’t think I slept until 2am. Then, I really slept. I didn’t get up until noon today, and this morning my dreams were about the open stage.

Now, I’m going to go have a bath and feel clean, then try and clean this apartment up. I’ll turn the Cam on when I’m cleaning up. In the meantime, a Bath Bomb from Lush is calling my name…

15 Comments

  • johnboze

    February 19, 2001 at 9:30 am

    I love your expressiveness…

    “soapstone or shale…”

    Sorry for the discomfort, but man I like the wording…

    • Jenny Lee Silver

      February 19, 2001 at 10:04 am

      Re: I love your expressiveness…

      Heh… it didn’t hurt to feel like soapstone or shale, it just felt very heavy, and when I imagined what my body looked like, it was akin to a pile of rocks not even vaguely human-shaped. It was an odd feeling… and difficult to describe.

    • Jenny Lee Silver

      February 19, 2001 at 10:04 am

      Re: I love your expressiveness…

      Heh… it didn’t hurt to feel like soapstone or shale, it just felt very heavy, and when I imagined what my body looked like, it was akin to a pile of rocks not even vaguely human-shaped. It was an odd feeling… and difficult to describe.

    • Jenny Lee Silver

      February 19, 2001 at 10:04 am

      Re: I love your expressiveness…

      Heh… it didn’t hurt to feel like soapstone or shale, it just felt very heavy, and when I imagined what my body looked like, it was akin to a pile of rocks not even vaguely human-shaped. It was an odd feeling… and difficult to describe.

  • johnboze

    February 19, 2001 at 9:30 am

    I love your expressiveness…

    “soapstone or shale…”

    Sorry for the discomfort, but man I like the wording…

  • johnboze

    February 19, 2001 at 9:30 am

    I love your expressiveness…

    “soapstone or shale…”

    Sorry for the discomfort, but man I like the wording…

  • peekaboo

    February 19, 2001 at 10:08 am

    that’s crazy. and johnboze is right, that wording really stuck me too. are you gonna post it alt mentalfragments?

    • Jenny Lee Silver

      February 19, 2001 at 10:09 am

      Hmm… maybe I should write it up a little more coherently and try that… *ponder*

      After I’ve cleaned up, maybe.

    • Jenny Lee Silver

      February 19, 2001 at 10:09 am

      Hmm… maybe I should write it up a little more coherently and try that… *ponder*

      After I’ve cleaned up, maybe.

    • Jenny Lee Silver

      February 19, 2001 at 10:09 am

      Hmm… maybe I should write it up a little more coherently and try that… *ponder*

      After I’ve cleaned up, maybe.

  • peekaboo

    February 19, 2001 at 10:08 am

    that’s crazy. and johnboze is right, that wording really stuck me too. are you gonna post it alt mentalfragments?

  • peekaboo

    February 19, 2001 at 10:08 am

    that’s crazy. and johnboze is right, that wording really stuck me too. are you gonna post it alt mentalfragments?

  • Anonymous

    February 19, 2001 at 10:30 am

    hmmmmm

    morning, j.l.

    so are you going to try the traffic upside-down thing? seems like some pretty heavy advice, but you never know.

    anything that leads to a deeper understanding of anything has to be a good thing 🙂

    let me know if you give it a whirl – my imagination and curiousity have perked their ears.

    -jinx

  • Anonymous

    February 19, 2001 at 10:30 am

    hmmmmm

    morning, j.l.

    so are you going to try the traffic upside-down thing? seems like some pretty heavy advice, but you never know.

    anything that leads to a deeper understanding of anything has to be a good thing 🙂

    let me know if you give it a whirl – my imagination and curiousity have perked their ears.

    -jinx

  • Anonymous

    February 19, 2001 at 10:30 am

    hmmmmm

    morning, j.l.

    so are you going to try the traffic upside-down thing? seems like some pretty heavy advice, but you never know.

    anything that leads to a deeper understanding of anything has to be a good thing 🙂

    let me know if you give it a whirl – my imagination and curiousity have perked their ears.

    -jinx