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Did you know…
that I have approximately 170 My Little Ponies?

Did you know…
that I never remember what someone looks like after I’ve met them?

Did you know…
that I have journals dating back to when I first realized I was an abuse survivor?

Did you know…
that I wanted to turn those journals into a book, but can’t find the emotional energy to do so?

Did you know…
that I have great difficulty making and keeping friendships with women, but find it simple to make friends with men?

Did you know…
that I trust some online friends I’ve never met more than I trust some friends I know in real life?

Did you know…
that I would give anything to live my dream if I only knew what it was?

Did you know…
that I hate limitations that have been imposed on me by myself and by others and by society, but I drown in them anyway?

Did you know…
that I want to explore everywhere I’ve never been?

Did you know…
that flying makes me feel pure and elated and euphoric?

Did you know…
that rain makes me feel cleaner than any shower or bath ever could?

Did you know…
that sometimes I enjoy loneliness because it helps me to better understand who I am?

Did you know…
that I’m sure I could fly or walk through a wall if I could only figure out how to make my mind stronger than my body?

Did you know…
that the internet saved my life when I nearly fell off the world?

Did you know…
that I miss people who have forgotten who I was?

Did you know…
that I don’t miss people who keep trying to come back into my life?

Did you know…
that I should probably be on meds for depression but refuse to go through the process of finding another therapist I can work with?

Did you know…
I’ve made a lot of mistakes and don’t regret the choices that led me to them?

Did you know…
that I’ve forgotten what it feels like to break down and cry because I’m the strong one who can survive anything since I’ve made it this far…

2 Comments

  • corachaos

    February 22, 2001 at 4:54 am

    Wow.

    Thanks.

  • corachaos

    February 22, 2001 at 4:54 am

    Wow.

    Thanks.