This is not the mood which I should be attempting to do anything in. I should just go to bed. I should check what time my appointment is, make sure I wake up in time tomorrow, go to sleep now, feel better, something.
There’s something very wrong with the headspace I’m in. I’d go for a walk in the rain, if it’s still raining, but I’m already sick. I really don’t need to make myself any worse.
And as if to emphasize that, the coughing fit hits me so hard I start crying.
Not a good place at all.