Things on my mind of late…

From an email I wrote:

Again I ask myself, how do people live their whole lives like this, waiting for the next moment they can do things they enjoy, having to survive perpetually doing things they don’t… what’s so wrong with me that I can’t seem to live like that? Sometimes I wish I was a sheep. They don’t know enough to care about what their lives are like.

From the reply someone wrote:

Sheep didn’t live in captivity hundreds of years ago……I think they might still remember. It occured to me sometime today that the story of the human race doesn’t lay in the stories we tell. It’s in the stories we don’t tell. So never underestimate sheep.

I’m always so impatient, waiting for life to start, thinking that this is just the interim before things really start happening. I’ve been thinking like that since I was 17. I really have to stop that kind of thinking, it’s not getting me anywhere at all.


  • bob

    July 11, 2001 at 3:18 pm

    erm… you mean things don’t start happening anytime soon? :/

  • Anonymous

    July 18, 2001 at 8:23 pm

    I think part of the thing that causes disatisfaction is always thinking about somewhere else, someone else, something else. I can picture little yoda talking about skywalker ‘always his mind somewhere else, never his mind on where he was, on what he was doing’. Which isn’t to say that those things are bad, just that if you’re going to be in the present moment, you might as well be aware of it and appreciate it for what it is. And i was going to write more but i’ve decided i’m not feeling very philosophical. Except for making a point that i usually don’t like doing dishes, but thinking about it, the sensations are nice – warm water wooshing around your hands, pretty bubbles to look at. Depends on how you visualize/sense it, right?