The world makes me sad. Not my world, not my microcosm of reality that I live every day… I mean the world that doesn’t accept that things are getting worse. Toronto never had smog warnings when I first moved here. This year we had one in early May, and it’s just gotten worse from then. And it’s not just in the city now… it’s spreading everywhere, cottage country has smog warnings now, and I’m pretty much certain that my perpetual headache is because of the air quality. The headache never goes away now… it just lessens sometimes, and worsens other times, and generally lurks all the time. The rain doesn’t cool the air down like it should. If I breathe too deeply I cough. I don’t have asthma, but sometimes I feel as though I do.

There’s some government program that offers to pay for your schooling if you go into psychology and plan to practice in Northern Ontario (there’s a shortage of psychologists up there, I guess.) Some days that’s almost tempting, just to be able to relearn how to breathe, but it’s starting to look like being out of civilization will make a difference anymore.

This planet is wrong. We’ve killed it. We just don’t know it yet.


  • Jenny Lee Silver

    July 21, 2001 at 8:27 pm

    I wouldn’t call it overreacting. I don’t think we deserve this planet or any other, and if we become extinct, that’s the way it should be.

    the human race is too obsessed with controlling its environment. It’s never paid attention to the bigger picture, though. If it kills us, its our own fault.

    • jerronimo

      July 21, 2001 at 8:29 pm



      i say; just find what you like to do, and do it. enjoy your life. :]

      • Jenny Lee Silver

        July 21, 2001 at 8:43 pm

        Again, easier said than done. And it’s so much harder to even want to enjoy life when there’s so much wrong.

        I’m too sensitive to my surroundings. Always have been. It makes things hurt too much.

  • daruba

    July 23, 2001 at 9:01 am

    it’s even worst.

    we’ve killed it.

    we DO know it.

    and yet we still go along doing what we do as it it will all take of itself.