I thought I wanted to kick his ass…

but it just didn’t matter anymore.

However, I have completely lost any respect I had for him. There is no reason to put people’s lives at risk, there is no reason to have such complete disregard for everyone else around you. Maybe no one close to him has ever died that way, but that shouldn’t have to be what it takes to teach someone respect for the rest of the world…

Maybe it won’t mean anything to him that I have no respect for him anymore. Maybe he won’t even notice. Maybe he’ll start hating me because I don’t treat him like a friend anymore. And maybe he’ll never notice a difference. All I know is that I look at him and see someone whom I can’t possibly treat with the respect that most people deserve.

My view of him is damaged. It would probably take a lot for me to regain a desire to treat him with respect.

He didn’t kill anyone with his car this time. Or last time. But I don’t care how many times he’s driven home completely drunk without hurting anyone. It’s a stupid, childish, and dangerous thing to do.

3 Comments

  • strange

    July 23, 2001 at 9:53 am

    It *is* a stupid childish thing to do because his luck will only hold out for so long. I’ve been known to get physically violent with friends of mine trying to get into their cars drunk. I would not think twice about wrestling them to the ground and doing anything in my power to not let them drive. I can understand why you are upset. If you do withdraw your friendship, please explain why though. He should know.

    • Jenny Lee Silver

      July 23, 2001 at 10:04 am

      Oh, I will certainly tell him… And if I had known he was leaving my house to drive home in that state, I would have taken his keys, but he lied and told me that he was staying on the couch until morning. The lie itself would upset me, but lying about that was even worse. It’s not like he had nowhere to stay.

  • ben

    July 23, 2001 at 10:09 am

    You are absolutely right, JennyLee.