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I feel so useless today… useless and comparative. If I were or I’d have art I could sell to people… but I’m not, no use comparing. I don’t have anything to sell. And the things I could sell, the things I wouldn’t have a problem parting with; my twelve string, books, the hammond organ (okay, that’s adam’s to sell, but he doesn’t have a problem with selling it…) no one wants to buy. But how do I explain this situation to my boss? How do I say ‘hey, I love this job, I love how you people treat me me, I’ve never been happier working for anyone… but I’m not surviving on what you pay me.’

Just like that, I suppose.

I feel like I’m on the edge of breaking down every minute of the day that I’m not distracting myself with something. How can things be so good and so not good at the same time?

5 Comments

  • cyn

    June 23, 2002 at 9:40 am

    say to your boss: ‘hey, I love this job, I love how you people treat me me, I’ve never been happier working for anyone… but I’m not surviving on what you pay me. may i have a raise please?

    and if you want to make art, make art! it’s easy.

    you could write articles for magazines and websites too. the pay isn’t great, but it’s something. the first article i ever sold was to a health magazine and i got $60. i have no writing training – i just did it.

    • Jenny Lee Silver

      June 23, 2002 at 10:56 am

      I used to write articles for a site in the states every week… and got paid for it and all – about 2 years ago. It went really well til I ran out of ideas and then couldn’t write anything for about a year, and hated playing computer games. At any rate, no one’s shown interest in or bought anything I’ve submitted since then.

      • cyn

        June 23, 2002 at 12:56 pm

        have you submit a lot of stuff? you have to keep at it!
        send things out every week, every day.
        keep scrapbooks of ideas and flip through free magazines at the library for more ideas.
        it’s hard to keep the energy up, but you have to keep fighting

  • strange

    June 23, 2002 at 11:06 am

    Hey sweetie, if you seriously don’t mind parting with those things, have you tried EBay? It might open up a greater potential market for you. *hugs*

    You are a survivor, you are an inspiration to me, you and Adam will get through this and come out shining.

    • Jenny Lee Silver

      June 23, 2002 at 12:11 pm

      I can’t sell stuff on ebay. We don’t have a credit card, ebay needs one. And they organ would be virtually impossible to ship…