Now I remember what I wanted to write.
Last night and the night before I dreamt about taking the cats somewhere that was very nature-ish. They got lost, in both dreams. Two nights ago, I was in a mountainous area, very much like the Laurentians in Quebec… old mountains, the hilly kind, not rocky-like. It might have been my stepmother’s cottage, the one I used to go to all the time when I was a kid… it’s not entirely clear in my head. I do remember nearly dropping Sera as I climbed down a bunch of rocks, and catching her by the scruff of her neck. I was absolutely petrified I was going to drop her.
Last night’s dream was in Temagami. I was hanging out with Adam’s dad, waiting for Adam and some other people to arrive. The cats were with us. They ran off into some huge storage place, like a warehouse, with doors that said do not enter. I went in anyway, looking for them. There was a guy with a crowbar I didn’t know chasing Dayle around, and just as I ran up to rescue Dayle, the guy hit him on the head with the Crowbar. It seemed to just knock Dayle out, though, since he woke up when I got to him, and his head wasn’t smashed in, but I was so terrified for that moment that he was hurt.
I don’t know what these dreams mean. In the past, I’ve lost a cat that I had to watch die when I couldn’t get to her fast enough to rescue her. I still hurt a lot from that, but it hasn’t been on my mind at all lately. I don’t think it’s related.
At any rate, these dreams are leaving me feeling uncertain and worried when I wake up in the morning. It’s getting to me… I just feel wrong right now.
I have to wonder if the quartz crystal I’ve been wearing around my neck has had anything to do with this. One of those things I read somewhere… but I don’t remember any details.