Thinking, thinking, thinking…

I have lots of time for thinking.

I don’t even know what kind of job I’m looking for. You could say that’s bad or good, depending on how you look at it. Leaves me open to lots of things, makes it hard for me to focus on anything.

Really, honestly, truly, I just want to go back to school and do it right this time. No more just going to school because I have to escape from home, or having emotional and mental breakdowns that ruin my year, or getting so messed up on anti-depressents that I stop caring what’s going on with my life and don’t bother to show up for the final practical exam… I’d like to go to school because I choose to, because I want to. I have a feeling that’ll make all the difference in the world. That, and the fact that I’m far more stable now than I ever was then.

Now I just need to pay off my old student loans and then find money to go to school – or get new student loans. Such an inefficient system we have here…

2 Comments

  • jerronimo

    January 7, 2003 at 12:48 pm

    Photography school!

    😀

    At least you’ve had some time to learn what you like to do and what you don’t like to do.

    I personally think that many people would be better off taking a few years off between high school and college, to better learn what they want to do with themselves… then again, many people realize this only after taking a few years of college or get out into a job.

    where was i going with that? I don’t know either. I’ll shut up now.

    • Jenny Lee Silver

      January 7, 2003 at 12:56 pm

      That’s exactly the conversation we were having with Ian and Vachel (on separate occasions.) The whole system of high school straight into college is just badly planned – I know so many people who go to school for something, and either hate it and drop out or get into the industry, hate it and wish they’d done something different. I didn’t know what I wanted to do for the rest of my life when I was 17, I just picked something because I had to. It was expected.

      and yes, photography school would be correct 😉