Watched most of a strange movie tonight… The Contenders, Series 7. I am beyond words to describe it… somehow hilarious and brutally disturbing all at once.
I most definitely do not handle boredom well or easily. It makes my head hurt and my body ache and it makes me feel useless and insignificant. My awareness of this fact doesn’t make it any easier to deal with, and hasn’t helped provide me with any methods to make things easier on myself. I just try and get through it when it hits me hard. I think it’s hard on Adam, too. He doesn’t like to see me all unhappy, frustrated, and helpless, but he doesn’t know any ways to make it any better either, so he feels helpless and frustrated. It’s all quite frustrating.
I started reading the Terry Goodkind books to pass the time. The first one is good so far.
I want a big change to happen. I just don’t know how to make it happen.