My frustration and annoyance knows no bounds. How I hate you, Outlook.
Working on my only day off. Oh well, who needs to relax anyway? Besides, all I was going to do at home was grocery shopping, laundry, cleaning, and other such things. I don’t need clean clothes or food either.
I’m trying to feel positive, but lately I’ve had too much on my mind to really keep it up. I just don’t see the point of any of this. I’m seeing and talking to my friends less now that I’m in the same city as I did when I was up north. I haven’t had the time off or extra cash to start working on my own stuff. Why am I here again? I fail to see the point.
Don’t get me wrong, it’s not that I don’t like working at the theatre, and it’s not like the ABBA has driven me completely mad yet, because it hasn’t. Not yet anyhow. The theatre’s a pretty simple job, when you take it apart, and the people I work with are nice. The lack of flexibility in hours is dampening my spirit, but that’s not such a big deal I guess. People I work with tell me it can be worked around, that they work things out to see their friends, or that they just aren’t social anymore. I’m not sure if that makes me feel better, since I’ve been trying to work around my schedule to see my friends and it’s for the most part not working at all. Plus, having only one day off a week basically means I can’t ever go anywhere for a weekend, since I don’t get one. Can’t go out to evening things because I work at an evening thing… maybe all my friends could come see Mamma Mia sometime? Yeah. Like that’ll happen. Because they all love ABBA so very much. Funny thing it, it really is a funny good show and the music’s a lot of fun.
At any rate, I haven’t been particularly cheerful the past week or so, and I think it’s getting to Adam, since he’s pretty happy about how things are working out according to our plan. And it’s not that I’m unhappy about it, it’s just that I’m not specifically happy either. I just feel like all this is kinda pointless, and I hate that feeling.
And we still don’t know if we got the apartment we applied for, so we don’t know if we have a place to live for November first or not.