Noises Off was great. I wish we had had more time to walk around and explore Stratford properly, but we didn’t. It was nice to drive out through Kitchener and such… A year’s worth of memories just kind of resurfaced as we passed places I remember. It was also a lovely day, sunny with fluffy white clouds and an ideal temperature. I basically enjoyed myself, although I know I was generally introspective and a little sad for a good part of the day. It was a strange combination of being happy and sad at the same time. Hard to explain to chatty people trapped in a small space together that you really don’t feel like chatting about anything, and you’d be happier to just sit and look out the window. But whatever.
Today I had a realization that makes me feel a bit ashamed of myself, in a way, but I have to admit it. I really dreadfully want a car of my own. There were so many places today that, had it been my trip and had I been in charge of the car without five other people in it, I would have pulled off the highway to go somewhere that looked interesting. Being trapped in the city all the time is, I think, a big part of my issue with wanting to move all the time. If I can’t go anywhere other than where I’ve already been, or what I’m familiar with, I start to feel bored with everything. I think I need the freedom to escape from the city and go places I’ve never been, explore little towns full of antique shops, stop at parks with hiking trails to climb a massive hill. And the pictures I could take… I need a car just so I can go driving alone down roads that look like they go off into oblivion. I need a car so I can stop by the side of the road and take pictures of horses in a field just because I feel like it. I need a car so I can throw our bikes onto the back of it and find trails.
I’m someone who needs a car. Not for living in the city, but for escaping it whenever I can. I still don’t want a car to run around day-to-day… I’ve become almost painfully attached to my biking for that, and I’d rather take ttc than have to pay out the nose for parking. But it’s a fact. I need a car.