Played minesweeper until my wrist hurt. Now I think I should get out of the house before I go stir crazy. There are things happening in various parts of the city today, must try to check them out. I just can’t sit here. Wish I could just drive and drive and drive and get away from the city and people and everything.
I think wedding stuff is seriously overwhelming me. And I’m feeling a bit like it’s not about me at all anymore, even though everyone keeps telling me that it’s all about me. There’s so much more to it that I’ve never been involved in, family politics and that sort of thing that I just don’t get. Anyone I didn’t want at my wedding, I chose not to invite, questions about it from other people be damned. Again, it shows that in some ways I’m a lot like my mother.
I just can’t wait for everything to be over with.