Played minesweeper until my wrist hurt. Now I think I should get out of the house before I go stir crazy. There are things happening in various parts of the city today, must try to check them out. I just can’t sit here. Wish I could just drive and drive and drive and get away from the city and people and everything.

I think wedding stuff is seriously overwhelming me. And I’m feeling a bit like it’s not about me at all anymore, even though everyone keeps telling me that it’s all about me. There’s so much more to it that I’ve never been involved in, family politics and that sort of thing that I just don’t get. Anyone I didn’t want at my wedding, I chose not to invite, questions about it from other people be damned. Again, it shows that in some ways I’m a lot like my mother.

I just can’t wait for everything to be over with.


  • strange

    July 1, 2005 at 9:28 pm

    When I started planning my wedding, the first thing one of my friends told me was: You think your wedding is about you, but really it is about what everyone else wants.

    Makes you just want to run off to city hall, doesn’t it?

    • Jenny Lee Silver

      July 2, 2005 at 1:44 am

      Completely. Or even Vegas, as tacky as that is.

    • mandamus

      July 3, 2005 at 3:04 am

      Exactly the reason I went for a surprise wedding 🙂 And no one could complain since even the bride was surprised – and delighted 🙂

      City Hall would definately have been the other option!