New Jobbiness

So I got a new job at a place that is infinitely cool and suits my personality quite well. Today I gave notice at my current place, where no one was particularly surprised since it was apparent just how bored I got.

I’m absolutely thrilled about this fact. It’s a place I’ve wanted to work since dropping in on their website a couple of years ago, and there is a huge list of incentives that make working there even more exciting. Now I have a whole lot to learn about the details of what they do.

Happy nearly birthday to me! 🙂

Feet and non-sleep

My foot (picture might be considered gross, if you don’t like looking at holes in feet), which didn’t hurt at all yesterday after the doctor burned the evilness out of me, aches like madness today. It’s actually hard to walk. Ow.

I didn’t sleep well last night, but this is unsurprising. I just had far too much on my mind. I should be able to put my mind at ease today. I’m very sleepy, though.

Tonight is dinner with friends night. Yay!

Pudding is the greater good…

Shawn sent me a link to this video. I liked it enough to share. Hooray for hugs or something.

Things are changing, and I like it. I will have more to say tomorrow. Or send me an email or msg me on msn or something like that and I’ll tell you.

Two words: A Meme (stolen from linguafranca)

1. When was the last time you shaved?
Last month

2. Explain what ended your last relationship.
Irreparable apathy.

3. What were you doing this morning at 8 a.m.?
Reading News

4. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
Eating Dinner.

5. Are you any good at math?
Not Great

6. Your prom night?
Didn’t Go.

7. Do you have any famous ancestors?
Lord Nelson

8. Have you had to take a loan out for school?
yes, three

9. Do you know the words to the song on your myspace profile?
No Myspace.

10. Last thing received in the mail?
Funny Shirt

11. How many different beverages have you had today?
Only three

12. Do you ever leave messages on people’s answering machine?
If important.

13. Who did you lose your CONCERT virginity to?
New Kids

14. Do you draw your name in the sand when you go to the beach?
Never have.

15. What’s the most painful dental procedure you’ve had?
Stupid Braces

16. What is out your back door?
Back door?

17. Any plans for Friday night?
Dinner in.

18. Do you like what the ocean does to your hair?
Never noticed.

19. Have you ever received one of those big tins of 3 different popcorns?
Yes, yum.

20. Have you ever been to a planetarium?
Yes, three

21. Do you re-use towels after you shower?
Yes, always

22. Some things you are excited about?
Camera lenses

23. What is your favorite flavor of JELLO?
Dark blue

24. Describe your key chain(s)?
Blue Rodeo

25. Where do you keep your change?
Candy bowl

26. When was the last time you spoke in front of a large group of people?
Don’t remember.

27. What kind of winter coat do you own?
Own three.

28. What was the weather like on your graduation day?
Don’t care.

29. Do you sleep with the door to your room open or closed??
open: cats.

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I went to a blood donor clinic tonight in an attempt to donate blood, since I’ve been talking about doing so for ages, but they wouldn’t let me because of the heart surgery I had four years ago. They’re going to get permission from my doctor first, then call and tell me if I’m allowed to donate.

Ah well, at least I tried.

I got all my taxes sent in. Hopefully that will clear everything up until next year. Evil taxes.

My mom and Merv will be back on Saturday. I hope their vacation is going well.

Laurie: Love the t-shirt. It made me laugh. Especially the STOP on the back. Thanks!

This Sunday is my birthday, and there will be dinner someplace (as well as some activity that I want to do during the day, although I haven’t yet decided what that will be.) Would you like to celebrate my birthday on Sunday with me?

I am in a pretty good mood this evening, although I’m very hungry at the moment. I’m going foraging for dinner now.

Meme

Modern, Cool Nerd
60 % Nerd, 56% Geek, 43% Dork
For The Record:

A Nerd is someone who is passionate about learning/being smart/academia.
A Geek is someone who is passionate about some particular area or subject, often an obscure or difficult one.
A Dork is someone who has difficulty with common social expectations/interactions.

You scored better than half in Nerd and Geek, earning you the title of: Modern, Cool Nerd.

Nerds didn’t use to be cool, but in the 90’s that all changed. It used to be that, if you were a computer expert, you had to wear plaid or a pocket protector or suspenders or something that announced to the world that you couldn’t quite fit in. Not anymore. Now, the intelligent and geeky have eked out for themselves a modicum of respect at the very least, and “geek is chic.” The Modern, Cool Nerd is intelligent, knowledgable and always the person to call in a crisis (needing computer advice/an arcane bit of trivia knowledge). They are the one you want as your lifeline in Who Wants to Be a Millionaire (or the one up there, winning the million bucks)!

Congratulations!

Also, you might want to check out some of my other tests if you’re interested in any of the following:

Buffy the Vampire Slayer

Professional Wrestling

Love & Sexuality

America/Politics

Thanks Again! — THE NERD? GEEK? OR DORK? TEST

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

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You scored higher than 99% on dork points

Link: The Nerd? Geek? or Dork? Test written by donathos on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

Poor Dayle…

Dayle has a cold. He has sneezing fits that spray snot everywhere. It’s unfortunate for him (and whoever he happens to be spraying with snot at any given moment.)

I have a sore throat, unrelated to Dayle’s cold. Not sure why, I must have picked something up someplace this weekend. Hopefully I can fight it off effectively. Time for some Vitamin C or something.

This weekend was full of activity. We didn’t do too much on Friday night – just headed out to Pitt Meadows to see Chris and Nanny while my mom & Merv are out of town on their vacation/cruise. Spent the night there, then got up early on Saturday morning to go mountain biking in Squamish with Adam, Chris, Sean, and Lorne.

We were out riding for about seven or eight hours, up and back down Garibaldi then up another mountain and back down the Powerhouse Plunge. I couldn’t tell you exactly how many kilometres we covered, but it was definitely a lot. I did all right, but they weren’t my favourite Squamish trails – I’m not that comfortable on Pseudotsuga although I’m far better than when I first tried it, and the Powerhouse Plunge kind of terrified me. You see, I’m a bit afraid of heights – or rather, the falling down from heights part of heights. The Plunge has a series of switchbacks coming down the mountain that are fairly narrow with very sharp turns. The dropoff is steep. I walked around the turns, since they were too narrow for me to feel comfortable about riding, and then on the straightaways with the dropoff cliff to one side I couldn’t stand up – had to coast down while sitting on the bike. If you don’t ride, then let me tell you this: when you stand up on your pedals, you’re way more stable, and the ride is much smoother. My fear of falling off the cliff, however, made it too difficult for me to stand – just couldn’t bring myself to do it. So I mostly coasted down that section of the plunge.

I did ride the middle section quite well, though – there was a cross-country area with a bunch of skinnies that were only six inches to a foot off the ground and not very sloped, and I rode nearly all of them. That was good. The first part of the trail with the ancient lavaflow area and large boulders strewn across the path, however, wasn’t much fun either. All in all, I mostly only liked the middle part of the Powerhouse Plunge. Guess I won’t be riding in the Test of Metal any time soon.

I took some pictures anyhow. I’ll edit them perhaps tomorrow. Chris wants me to get them done soon I think. I’m just tired now though.

After biking last night we went back to Pitt Meadows with Chris and spent the night there. Adam and I watched three episodes of Lost before falling asleep. We managed to sleep in a bit, got up and spent some time with Nanny before heading out to go In-line skating around the Seawall at Stanley Park with Chris and artyste. Adam and I recently acquired inline skates and wanted to test them out. After the 8 hours of biking yesterday, our legs were a bit wobbly. We pushed through it, though, and managed to ride the entire seawall. By the end of it my feet were cramping and my legs thoroughly exhausted. We then went out for mongolian grill and came home, and now I’m lying on the couch feeling all the bruises and sore muscles that are complaining about my activity-filled weekend. There may not be many left of the good weather, so we’d like to put in as much time doing wheel-based things as we can before we’re only able to hike in the rain. Winter is not far off now. Mountain biking on the trails in winter is slippery and dangerous, and inline skating in the rain is slippery and likely also dangerous.

On the nature of my happiness

I find it difficult to exist in a state of happiness. I am aware, logically, that it really is all my state of mind, and that I have the power to change my attitude about something that I consider unhappy about my life, my job, or anything else. Logic and I don’t always like to play nice, however. I’m pretty stubborn, and when I get it in my head that I’m unhappy about something, I tend to latch on to it and obsess about it and carry it around with me everywhere. If someone suggests that I maybe not obsess so much, then I take it as some kind of personal attack. The thing is, I really do feel like I have to protect that feeling – as if I would lose something important if I let it go.

Wait, I’m not being very clear. Let me try again.

Those shoes, that girl, that job.

Those Shoes:
Let’s face it, I second guess a lot of things. I second guess my decisions about what I’m doing on the weekend. I wonder if I’m missing something better than what I’m doing. I’m one of those people, although I am much better than I used to be. My awareness of this aspect of my personality, this habit if you will, has caused me to think it through more and actively accept the choices I make. Last Friday I decided not to go to Games with Adam and spadoink and the others. Making that choice was tough for me because I didn’t want to miss anything, but once I had phoned Adam to tell him I would instead be staying at work for a while and then just spending a quiet night in with Chris, Jinni, Tara and Glen, I was comfortable with it. I didn’t second guess that decision.

Sometimes I wonder if I should have held out a little bit longer on buying my laptop so that I could have had a slightly faster processor, or a better promotion or discount, or whatever. I’ve been training myself not to think that way, because it has no bearing on the reality that my laptop is what I got. I’m happy with it, it is perfect for my needs, and I have no complaints. Same goes for my mountain bike. Never really thought that way about my camera, though.

Last week I started to get depressed over leaving high school a year early because I was so desperate to get away from Iroquois. I started to go through ‘what ifs’ about relationships, my potential career path, and my entire life since then, based on the concept that I did not stay and do OAC credits, which meant I never bonded as closely as some of my friends did after I left, and meant I didn’t go to University but instead pursued college which has turned out to be virtually useless in any career sense. Or has it?

The point is, that was a choice I made when I was 17 – twelve years ago now. Twelve years is a long time for me to be sitting at my desk nearly crying over something that I imagine might have turned out better than what I have now. There is no way I can know that, and regret is pretty stupid over a choice I made when I was 17.

That Girl
Adam is inherently an upbeat, happy, outgoiing, and energetic guy when it comes to his life. This is the man I’ve married. I am inherently a mellow, realistic, shy and low-energy kind of girl. We work well together, we make each other happy, we drive each other crazy. There is no decision there that I regret. I already knew long before I was with him that a boyfriend/husband would not create perfection in my life. He doesn’t always understand me, I don’t always understand him.

That Job
This is where everything comes to pieces. I haven’t been really happy with a job for more than 8 months since I worked at Smoothwater – and I only worked there for a few months, so it probably doesn’t even count. It’s not even that I’m unhappy with the current job I have – I’m just bored. Unfortunately for me, I don’t take boredom well. I think sometimes that I should learn to, and I try to fill my time with things, but sitting at a computer surfing just doesn’t cut it. I taught myself some photoshop, but without a specific purpose in mind I lost interest quickly. I redesigned my website. I designed someone else’s website. I reaffirmed my lack of interest in designing websites. It’s like I’m not interested in doing anything, except doing nothing is even worse.

Hi, my name is Jenny and I’ll be 30 in nine days, and I still don’t know what to do with my life.

It doesn’t really matter in the long term.