Yadda yadda

yadda. I’m about half a thought away from putting my head down on my desk and crying, and there is no logical or valid reason for it. I’m fighting the feeling back, I really am, but I can’t figure out what I’m fighting. If I knew what was causing it, maybe I could deal with it, but I just don’t know. Have to get through the next four and a half hours, then go home. But I’ll have to be okay at home too, because there isn’t a reason for feeling like this and I hate trying to explain that to Jay, I don’t think he understands.

My lip split, I can taste blood.


  • jetgirl23

    May 18, 2000 at 10:04 am

    Go ahead and cry! don’t fight it! you hold something like that back and you’ll just feel worse! Your body needs to do it….cry – cry – cry!! Man, I did it at work the other day…I felt a little silly, but I felt so good afterwards…well, for a while. Just get it out. people bottle too much stuff up. Sometimes I push things back and leave things unattended to and they build and build without me even knowing it…then boom! It all comes rushing out…then I start realizing what is freaking me out. But at the time I have no idea…

    Well, just rambling..ssorry.

  • Anonymous

    May 22, 2000 at 4:50 am


    “Cry baby, cry. Make your mother sigh. You’re old enough to know better….”

    Funny how that’s probably the only Beatles song that really gets me pissed off. Unless I misunderstood the lyric….

    You’re old enough to know better, all right- old enough to know that when you need to cry you cry, and that you don’t owe an explanation to anyone.

    Have you ever noticed you seem to get particularily melancholy in may and june?

    • Jenny Lee Silver

      May 22, 2000 at 9:15 am

      Re: Cry

      Is it just me, or does anyone else feel worse in May/June? You’d think I would like spring, when everything is coming to life and it’s not cold anymore.