Damn that fucking downswing mood. I don’t know why it shows up sometimes, and it makes me want to just give up. It hit me when I was playing guitar tonight… I was actually looking over one of my own (very few) songs and playing it, and it just hit me that I hated the song, and I hated the words, and I wanted to break my guitar and go somewhere far away from myself. But I didn’t break my guitar, and I’m still here, sitting here with a strange lump in my throat feeling like I’m going to cry for no reason at all. Maybe I should just give up and go to bed.

1 Comment

  • Anonymous

    October 16, 2000 at 9:01 am


    or maybe you should cry, then take a breather and try again when the feeling subsides. often times our head tricks us into holding great animosity towards something we absolutely love doing, ie. your music. but don’t give up, j.l.! you are a wonderful spirit, and have loads of talent. don’t let your mind-echoes win over your heart!