Cyn is dying her hair oncam… I was supposed to help her reach the hard parts, and she was going to do my hair, except she wasn’t feeling well on Tuesday so we cancelled, which I totally understand, since I would do the same.

I feel sad though. I know I shouldn’t and the last thing I want is to make anyone feel guilty, so I don’t want it to be taken that way at all. I’m just disappointed that I didn’t get to help cyn do her hair (never have done that for anyone before,) and that I didn’t get to find something different to do with my head. I know we’ll do it later. I’m being silly and childish. Well, that’s how I feel right now… like a child. I don’t know. Blah.

In the Secret Forums, someone asked what one regret people have. I couldn’t come up with one. This is what I did come up with, however…

I seem to only regret the things I had no control over. Or those are the things that pop into my head immediately when I think about this. I guess I’ve still got farther to go than I thought I did.

I regret that I didn’t leave sooner
I regret that I never told anyone
I regret that I wasn’t close enough
I regret that I lied for someone else’s sake
I regret that I haven’t done anything about anything since.
I regret that I’m not strong enough to do anything about it now.


  • cyn

    October 19, 2000 at 8:52 pm

    wasn’t even in the mood to do hair tonight, but had to be done before i leave for weddingness tomorrow…

    i’m sorry i couldn’t on tuesday, but i know that you understand. next week for sure – and we’ll have a blast. if you want, we could ask Z to bring the martini briefcase… 🙂

    • Jenny Lee Silver

      October 20, 2000 at 8:45 am

      hehe the martini briefcase is all well and good, except that I can’t drink anything from it… I tried at your party, and I couldn’t finish it. 😉