I can remember a time when I felt real and alive… when I learned how to learn, and I tried my best to stop being afraid. I felt, then, like something was beginning, like I was about to start something that would mean more than I could imagine. I can remember that time as clearly as if I’m there again, some days. It’s been a long time since I sat and thought about that, though. It’s been a long time since I looked at my life and thought that I was getting somewhere. Now, tonight, it dawns on me that I’m done with the part of my life that included working at musicmusicmusic. I don’t know what I am going to do, but I finally feel like I’m actually going to do something. And now I’m going to put all of that out of my mind, and just go with whatever happens.