This is not the mood which I should be attempting to do anything in. I should just go to bed. I should check what time my appointment is, make sure I wake up in time tomorrow, go to sleep now, feel better, something.

There’s something very wrong with the headspace I’m in. I’d go for a walk in the rain, if it’s still raining, but I’m already sick. I really don’t need to make myself any worse.

And as if to emphasize that, the coughing fit hits me so hard I start crying.

Not a good place at all.


  • strange

    April 26, 2001 at 9:44 pm

    rain walking

    I went for a walk in the pouring rain (without an umbrella) it was nice. I should really do it more often. Very introspective in a good way.

    • Jenny Lee Silver

      April 26, 2001 at 9:46 pm

      Re: rain walking

      I would be out there, but this cough is killing me piece by piece. Or at least it feels like something is…

  • crichton

    April 26, 2001 at 9:47 pm

    i hate coughing fits – especially when they’re dry. they’re much worse than repetitive sneezing. i suffer from seasonal allergies pretty much every season, so i have to fight at times not to get sick. i have to remind myself about taking vitamins, which surprisingly do help. when i slack, i become more susceptible to allergies and colds.

    get well soon.