Tomorrow is day nine of work without a day off. Mon-Fri. are all going to be course-related learning and outings and such. I imagine on the weekend I’ll be working again. A day of nothingness is a long time coming, but I will relish it when it arrives. In the meantime, it’s great to be doing stuff.

I am so tired I don’t have words for how tired I am. In the past couple of weeks I’ve woken up in absolute agony not able to move my head side to side because of extreme pain in the right side of my neck. It gets easier to deal with as the day goes on, but from when I first wake up for about three hours I can hardly walk, and I keep breathing funny because my neck hurts. Hard to explain, but hey. Going to try sleeping differently, getting a different pillow, and turning off the fan at night to see if it stops happening. So much pain…

I’m looking forward to the course though. I’ve been trying to decide which camera to bring… I know mine better, but I have more lenses and stuff for Adam’s dad’s that I’ve borrowed. Versatility or familiarity… an ongoing struggle.

Nearly done book six of the Sword of Truth. On to book seven by tomorrow, if I take the time to read. Haven’t had any time for such things this week. Haven’t really replied to email much either. Then again, I don’t feel like replying to what I’ve read. I have nothing to say. And then there’s the ones I haven’t even read, which really aren’t many, but I’m too tired to deal with.

Actually online with *my* computer, which is a nice change… it’s doing that internet filesharing thing through XP over Adam’s computer.

linguafranca, I have that picture for you. It’s in a secret place…


  • skamp21

    July 12, 2003 at 9:12 pm

    Have you had problems like this with your neck before? I might be able to give you some tips if you haven’t, but I won’t take up lots of space here. Let me know if you want some help.


    • Jenny Lee Silver

      July 12, 2003 at 9:28 pm

      Not really, no. Any suggestions would be great, however.

      • skamp21

        July 12, 2003 at 10:10 pm

        Okay…based on the little I know…

        My guess is you have knots in your neck. I dunno if you’ve ever had knots (I used to get them all in my lower back). Feel around on your neck while it’s hurting and see if you can find pressure points where the muscle is knotted. Massages help this lots (but you should find someone who is at least a little familiar with knots and can massage them out…they hurt while they’re rubbing them, but they should loosen and dissipate).

        I don’t think turning off the fan will help, unless it’s affecting your posture somehow. My guess is that you either slept on it funny, or if you’ve been bending around doing lots of cleaning, stuff that kinda messes with your posture, (like it sounds like you’ve been doing, from your journal), that could have contributed. Stuff like this, a lot of times once it happens, it continues happening until you figure out what’s causing it. My back did that–it hurt, and it hurt, and it hurt, until I finally altered some stuff, and it hasn’t hurt since. Swimming was what helped me, but I had problems with my lower back, and you have yours in your neck, so I don’t know if swimming will help you.

        You can buy pillows with a stiffer lower side that supports your neck more. My dad has one, but I’m not sure where he got it. Is your mattress really old? If it’s really old and squishy it might be messing up your posture when you sleep. Do you sleep on your side, or on your stomach? The more I think about it, the more it must be something in how you sleep, since you said as the day goes on it gets better–movement seems to be helping. Think about your posture when you’re standing, and try to transfer that to however you sleep. I used to stick a pillow between my legs, which just kept my back and hips straighter (but is only necessary if you sleep on your side). Since movement seems to help, try doing some when you get up. Don’t push it too much, I’m sure you can tell the difference between okay pain and bad pain (Okay pain being, okay, this hurts, but I know I’m not seriously seriously injured; bad pain being I CANNOT FUCKING HANDLE THIS AT ALL OW). Try massaging (or getting someone to massage) your neck a bit. If you’re going to try a hardcore massage by someone who knows what they’re doing, don’t do it while you’re in agony, wait till your neck’s sort of feeling okay.

        I found these websites–I’m always aggravated by sites that say, “Any such pain should be examined by a doctor” because a lot of times, I think that’s not the case, though I hate doctors so that could be why. But take a look, if you want, they’re written by people who are more of an expert than I am.

        All About Back and Neck Pain
        Making Your Bad Back Better (this one looked cool, it has stuff you can do yourself.

        All these I found by searching yahoo.com. There were several thousand hits, so if none of those sites help you can probably find one that does.

        I’m all about trying to find stuff to do for your neck (or my back, or whatever happens to be wrong) rather than taking pain killers and hoping it goes away by itself. I had to live on pain killers for six months and it was frustrating because I knew it wasn’t doing anything to help me except allowing me to function some. personally, I think a massage and a new pillow sounds like your best bet, but I’m no expert. If this goes on and on, go see a doctor or a chiropractor and see what they suggest.

        Hope this helps. Let me know if you want info about knots…I know allll about knots and might be able to help you get rid of those, if that’s what you have. Actually, you should hope that’s what you have, cuz they’re pretty easy to take care of.

        • Jenny Lee Silver

          July 14, 2003 at 10:04 pm

          You can buy pillows with a stiffer lower side that supports your neck more. My dad has one, but I’m not sure where he got it.

          I stole one from Adam’s dad… he has two of them. I’ve been using it the past few nights. It seems to help some.

          Is your mattress really old?

          No, it’s reasonably new (maybe a couple of years old) and in pretty good shape. It’s not sagging or anything, still pretty firm.

          Do you sleep on your side, or on your stomach?

          I think I fall asleep on my side and then always end up on my stomach.

          A friend of mine today massaged my neck a bit (he’s pretty good with such things) and he commented that my neck had a knot. He worked on it a bit, but there wasn’t enough time to really work it out or anything.

          I’ve been swimming a bit in the past few weeks. Don’t know if it’s helping, but I like swimming anyhow – I just jump in the lake when I’m done working. The bonus of working at a lodge.

          I’m not too fond of doctors either, generally… depends on the doctor though. I try to find other options than drugs to fix stuff up, however, as much as I can.

          Thanks for the info… I’ll check those sites too and see what works out for me. 🙂

  • linguafranca

    July 12, 2003 at 9:13 pm

    Sweet Jesus, that’s scary.

    • Jenny Lee Silver

      July 12, 2003 at 9:28 pm

      Heh… I thought I warned you about that.