My hands smell like basil and garlic. It’s making me hungry.

It’s a little depressing that I’ve offered a couple of people some prints of some of my photos and they don’t seem at all interested in getting one. And that includes my mom. Well, she says she wants one, but she can’t decide which one. She’s my mom… I told her she could have more than one…

I am very generally disheartened the past couple of days. And starting to feel depressed. Starting sunday, however, I work for eight days straight. That should solve any problems I have thinking too much and making myself depressed. I feel like I’m never going to make it to school. Even if I ever do make it, I’ll be in my thirties by the time I’m done. That’s years from now. I feel like I’m never going to get out of this endless rut of lifeless nothingness.

Oh yeah. This summer is great for my emotional well-being.


  • ashkitty

    July 25, 2003 at 4:22 pm

    you can send me a print of one of your photos. I will put it on the wall and tell everybody it’s yours. 😉

    but you don’t have to.

  • msfancypants

    July 25, 2003 at 4:24 pm

    You didn’t offer me a print. I would love one!

    And what’s so bad about going to school in your 30’s? I did it. Patience, you’ll get there. And it’ll be that much sweeter when it happens.

    • Jenny Lee Silver

      July 25, 2003 at 4:46 pm

      I did offer you a print, about four months ago. Back when I still had ink in the printer. I have since run out of ink in the printer.

      It’s not the going to school in my 30s that bugs me. It’s the fact that I can’t even see how I’m going to get there yet. I thought I’d be starting by this fall, but it’s not going to happen. I may not even be able to start until 2005 or something, the way things are going.

      • msfancypants

        July 25, 2003 at 5:56 pm

        What did I say when you offered me a print? You should send me some cause I have a card for Black’s allowing me something like 10 free digital prints.

        BTW, your film will cost approximately $27. Let me know what you want to do.

        • Jenny Lee Silver

          July 26, 2003 at 10:22 am

          Well, I’m not getting paid for my work until the end of the month. apparently we’re paid monthly. And I think that I pretty much owe all the money I’ve made back to my work for various things. Oh yeah, this working to save some money thing is really working out well. I might have some cash next week from Adam’s dad, though, for work I did for him. Must wait until he’s back from Wisconsin to find out what’s going on with that. So I guess I’ll figure something out next week.

          You told me you didn’t know what you’d want. I was waiting to find out which one(s) you’d decided on. I kinda figured you forgot.

          • msfancypants

            July 26, 2003 at 10:36 am

            Hrm. Send me something nice by email. Send me anything you’d like prints of and I’ll get them printed. Then I’ll keep one I like.

  • jelly

    July 25, 2003 at 7:06 pm

    I wonder if Bucky is finally going to get his monkey.

  • mentalmakeup

    July 26, 2003 at 8:34 am

    I’m 25 now, and every once in awhile I think, man, I’m never going to get to school, and if I do, I’ll be in my thirties before I graduate. This is awful.

    And inevitably I tell my girlfriend about this train of thought, and inevitably she’ll turn to me and say, “Ok, but, you’ll be in your thirties by then whether you go to school in between or not.” It’s a surprisingly good point.

  • lowkey

    July 27, 2003 at 9:44 pm

    Do you actually have any of your prints for sale? I may be interested, as my walls are still laden with college-leftovers of posters. After all, I’ve already stolen the background of fneucam.com and set it as my desktop background. (Shh, don’t tell your I told you that!)

    • Jenny Lee Silver

      July 27, 2003 at 10:23 pm

      Pretty much all of them are available to buy. It’s easy enough to make prints from the negatives, and I never lose negatives. 🙂

  • pam_e

    July 28, 2003 at 7:25 am

    Jerry and I never saw prints…

    Know how frustrating the school thing is, I was frustated that I didn’t finish college until 28 and now that I’m in my 30’s I’m finding that I’m not happy with what I’m doing and I’m going back to school this fall. So you won’t be the only one finishing in your 30’s. We can compare horror stories of how awful it feels to be the oldest one in classes 😉

    I get really depressed too and keep questioning what it is I want to do and if I’m going in the right direction, but at least we’re trying to go to school and do something we like. May seem far away, but you’ll get there. And you have such cool projects (love your photos) in the meantime!

    • Jenny Lee Silver

      July 28, 2003 at 8:04 pm

      Jerry and I never saw prints…

      I don’t get the prints made until people let me know that they’re interested in them… can’t afford to just have stacks kicking around…. not that I don’t *want* stacks of prints kicking around… 😉

      • pam_e

        July 29, 2003 at 1:06 pm

        Got it. We officially start looking at houses today, so once we get one we’ll need a print for our new living room 🙂

  • xoobee

    July 30, 2003 at 7:17 pm

    I’d love one! I just have to decide which…
    What’s the link for the album?