Earlier this evening I was hopeful and full of positive energy. Now I am disheartened and feeling completely drained. There are some things I could be doing: Playing games on the computer, watching our one tv station, reading, playing guitar – but I don’t feel like doing any of it. I don’t feel like doing anything. I feel so completely lethargic and frustrated. Maybe it’s lack of sleep or excersize or something like that… I don’t know. And I can’t find anyone around I’m willing to talk to about it… it’s all the same crap again and again anyway, there’s no point in rehashing it when I already know what I would say if I was listening to what I have to say coming from someone else. What’s the point in confiding when you already know the answers? It just makes me feel worse.

I think I have to go sit somewhere with my guitar in my lap. Maybe that will help.