Man, I’m terrible lately for being connected to things like this journal. I’m stressed out and internalizing a lot of stuff instead of doing what I used to do and spout it all out here. I recently started writing in a paper journal again, which I haven’t done in quite a while (maybe four years or more?)
Things are crazy and busy and overwhelming right now. I am so looking forward to the December office closure, just so I can try to catch up on life. I haven’t been riding at all lately, and I feel totally off balance. With Adam stressed out about so many different things, I’ve been working hard at being there for him. Unfortunately I’m reaching that breaking point – every moment alone not doing any work this week for me was just demotivating for me, to the point that a co-worker who saw me on the bus on the way to work came up and asked me what was wrong, and told me I looked sad. Never a good sign.
I’ve been so tired the past few weeks that I haven’t biked at all – just too exhausted in the morning to even consider it. I would think about the process required, getting up, dressing for a cold and possibly rainy ride in, finding clothes to change into at work, and then working all day and having the long uphill ride home after a long day. I’m just not feeling it right now.
On Monday I start a yoga class again. I haven’t consistently done one since 1999, to be honest – I’m a bit nervous. I’ve done some yoga dvds since then, but only one class and it was terrible (Hot yoga is not my thing.) Who knows, maybe that will help.